I was in there a few weeks ago looking for a new women's Bible study (specific goal) and of course found a few other things while I was there. One of the books I found is His Princess Bride: Love Letters from Your Prince by Sheri Rose Shepherd. I went ahead and purchased it because it speaks directly to some of the things God has been working on in me (and it was on sale). It's organized by topic and I've been reading a few of them a day since I bought it. The layout is a brief letter from Christ and then a brief response from His Bride. I opened it today, praying that God would guide me to what I needed to hear from Him today. It opened to the first entry, "I Am Your Eternal Husband." Here is His letter:
My Eternal Bride,
I want to reveal a sacred secret to you, My beloved. Although I am your God, I am also your eternal Husband. I will come soon to carry you over the threshold into eternity. My desire is to lift the veil from your eyes that you might see who you really are, My Princess, My Bride. I am the Lover of your soul. I long to get close enough to give you a glimpse of My eternal love for you. If you will seek Me with all your heart, I will reveal Myself to you in extraordinary ways. If you will come before Me and ask, I will give you a new hope in your heart that will change your view of Me, of yourself, and of the world around you forever.
Your Creator and Husband
The Lord All-Powerful,
the Holy God of Israel,
rules all the earth.
He is your Creator and husband,
and He will rescue you.
Isaiah 54:5 CEV
Understanding who I really am in Christ and how He really sees me is an area God has been working on in me. Last night, I had a brief conversation with a friend about my identity in Christ and how He's changing specific thought patterns and actions. I've had a hard time making some of the transitions and have stumbled quite a bit this past week.
For many years, I've passed myself off as "the dumb blonde" in groups of friends, particularly when I'm making new friends. It was easier for me to reject and make fun of myself before someone else did so. However, a big problem would arise when the friend would jokingly throw my very words back at me and I took them seriously, not as the joke I originally said. It has become a very dangerous and hard cycle to break, but God is breaking it.
Lord, "may I find myself as I begin to seek You with all that is within me."
Shepherd, Sheri Rose. His Princess Bride: Love Letters from Your Prince. Revell: Grand Rapids, Michigan, 2008. p. 10-12.